Elle Macpherson confesses to desperate move in new book

Elle Macpherson opens up about her past battles with alcohol and bulimia.

In her new book Life, lessons and learning to trust yourself released on Tuesday, the 60-year-old Australian supermodel spoke candidly about her struggles with alcohol addiction even after giving birth to her second son Cy, 21.

“My life seemed amazing to everyone. “Outwardly I was doing a beautiful job, but deep down I was really struggling,” she wrote on Page Six.

The author explained how the addiction developed as her anxiety problems increased, noting that it accumulated due to the frequent hospital visits of her eldest son Flynn and the frequent trips of her then-partner Arpad ‘Arki’ Busson.

And when she was gifted a bottle of champagne after giving birth in 2003, her physiotherapists advised her not to drink immediately after giving birth as her hormones would “be all over the place”. Despite the warning, she confessed: “All I could think about was that bottle of champagne in the ice bucket” as she held her newborn in her arms.

“In the evenings, after I put him to bed, I found myself relaxing with a vodka,” he wrote, detailing a revelation made at an AA (Alcoholics Anonymous) meeting.

As Macpherson admitted she was on a “terrible downward spiral” trying to balance her relationship, motherhood and work, the supermodel recalled a desperate attempt to drink from a broken vodka bottle – which she cited as her breaking point.

“I hastily shot myself a shot that could have been full of shards of glass. And I drank it,” he later recalled to AA.

Macpherson considered going into rehab after the 2000 Sydney Olympics, where she was forced to cancel her participation in the closing ceremony as she “drank enough champagne or vodka to calm my nerves which had disoriented me”.

Arki also discouraged Macpherson from going to rehab, she wrote. “I think he was scared. He didn’t want me to be away from him and I think he was also afraid of change.”

In addition to her relationship with alcohol, Macpherson also opened up about her breast cancer diagnosis and her decision to forgo chemotherapy for breast cancer.

“Every day I actively, intentionally nurture my wellness and take care of myself,” she said in her book. “Cancer is no longer an option for me. Like drinking is not the answer for me.’